Dear readers ,
Hi everybody. Just wanna tell you that Charmaine rocks. She's the best person ever who let me bathe in her house and give me pad to use WoRzXz! HAHAHAAHHAAH. Okay charmaine here.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Dear readers ,
the bread look nice on the outside right??haha..but the inside kanasia...
haiyo cannot like tat say..cux tis bread is priceless la..cux it's specially made for mi wan..
it realli warms my heart la...i'll neva forget it..i love u...
i took tis bus after 2 month we took it together...
within this 2 month...alot of thing happen..
n i guess i should put down all the thiing tooo..
u will be happier... and i'll be happier too.=)
im sorry..i noe u r nice to mi...
no other ppl had ever done this for mi..
i jux cant accerpt ur love...
im touch by all the thing tat u do..but still...
im sorry for unable to accept ur love..
as my heart still stay with her nomater how much she had hurt mi...
hope u find someone new soon..take care...
u bought this for mi..
u took the effort to write those words...
it warms my heart..
i dunno if u meant wat u had write,i accept it..
it might be tis sweet tat make mi turn back...
i'll see how it goes...i love u...
lover gave mi this 24 sweets...
t's soo touching..
hahax..thanks lover...
sorry tat i make u feel e way u r feelin nw..im realli sorry...give mi some time..
i'll be back the old mi..sorry lover...
cheer up...
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Dear readers ,
haiyer i wan to post pic la..
yesterday wen char hse den in the end com got error la..
den i veri sad la...
cux inside got pic tat warms my heart lo...
yupps..den went char hse to pom pom..haha
den on wed went town with huiwen n ger...
ger wasnt feelin well so she went homr 1st..
den mi n huiwen went to walk panty n bra deparment....
den sooo malu lo...
everyone is lookin at us la...omg
den it was super funny la...
den yesterday after sch we went out with sherlyn they all...
so sway can?
wear same colour as her,hahax..kiddin...later she come scratch mi...
i scare scare sia
haha...
i dunno if i should turn back not...im confused...very loss of wat to do...im afraid tat of i turn back u will hurt mi once again..
n i guess my feelin had realli faded...wat my hearts wan i realli dunno...i cant follow my heart..i cant follow anything...i realli cant..n for all i noe u might be still lovin her as deep as last time....i dun wish t noe the cruel truth...it realli hurt alot...nobody will noe how i feels...i always noe thing which i dun wan to noe..things jux become like tat..u used to think tat i attitude u this n tat..but behind it...i jux simply found out alot of thing tat u did..some thing are jux cant be hidden i guess...i'll continue be in ur life not,i dunno...i wish to give my love for u one more chance...im afraid when i turn back,u might jux throw my heart on the floor...im realli realli scared o gettin hurt again...i got no more confidence in myself anymore..no more...i simply cant trust myself anymore...im happy with the way i in...i guess i wun care abt anything anymore...i'll jux let nature take its path...if u r meant to be mine,i nid not to do anything, u 'll be mine...if u r not meant to be mine...no matter how much i things i do,u oso wun be mine la...so ya lo...all i ask for is u to be happy..infront of mi,u nid not to act happy..cux i'll neva believe tat u r happy...but once again i got to thank u for givingmi all the happy moment...and thing tat warms my heart...i realli thank u...
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Dear readers ,
today is kind of happy la...
as in i happen to noe tat someone....
hahax dun tell u all.so kapo for wat??
omg i cant believe it la..
but i dunno it's real or fake wan la...
have to go check it out 1st or else later malu myself can?
hahax...i wrote total of 2 letter to her* today.hahax
damnit fast right??
i got her* number..damn happy can?hahax.
den i noe her* birthday n everything.hahax.
den today i damn stupid la..
cux in history class,i was thinkin of her* like crazy..
den i accidentally go press my phone mp3 button...
den got song la..damn loud.
i quickly off it.hahax.
but mr tan din say anything.he closed 1eye..
so nice right?
so ppl..come on take history la..
easier also.hahax
den during recess play damn funny la.haiyo.
we awhlie like playin ruby la...hahax.
wow was damn tired..
my whole blouse wet..
den pc lesson,we nid to draw IJ girls ma..
den i jux anyhow draw la...
den it was like super ugly...
CHUASIHUI help mi write name,
she went to write Lcube or..
cux imLIM LI LING..
den mrs wong dunno who..
she say she wan to paste my drawing outside class can?
omg.it was super malu la..
den germaine is nice today..
she wrote lyrics for mi..thanks gal..
idiot la she.post my pic in her blog.
somemore is my zhilian photo la.
hahax.. i was damn malu can??
i serously dunno..i jux think tat u should do wateva u wan..as in u can be happier...yes u might be angry with mi or anything.but i wun do anything anymore..yes i broke ur trust,i dunno i'll get a chance to regain ur trust in mi la..yes i noe im hurtin towards u..im sorry...i got no other choice...in ur heart u noe u still love her*alot..this u noe for sure...if the 3 of us force u t0 kick out 1,i noe tat it'll be mi...can sense tat u actually love them..but however...yes i dun deny the fact tat i treated u badly first...but u cant deny the fact tat u had started treatin mi very coldly ever since u went back to her..u jux dun seems to interested to talk to mi...do u even think i wan to leave u?everybody can see tat is u forced mi out of ur life wan..dun believe u go ask ppl around u la..fuck up also no use...no point..i took e initiative,did u even appreciate it?no instead u jux throw it VERY hard on e groung..ever noe how hard my heart had bleed becux of u?yes i cant do anything to u la..yupps.do wateva u wan..u do not have e nid to xi guan mi not in ur life..becux long long time ago,i meant nothing to u anymore...yes i still cant deny e fact tat i realli care for u n unable to get over u..but wat else can i realli do?u tell mi la..knowin tat nothin will come out of us,y do i still bother hanging on?y?i dun wish to see u unhappy cux i missed the old u..e u tat laugh with mi through out the whole day.where is it hiding?i realli miss it...jux hope tat u wil be happy..now i jux wan to be frenx with u again..but all u say is i dun nid anymore frenx..alright den..yes i still cant get over of wat u did to mi...no point hangin on...if u seriously think tat womenlianpengyoudoubukeyizhou,everything is comin to an end...will it had a new beginin or it'll be the end,everything lies in ur hand..i seriously nid to heal my wound...it is bleeding VERY VERY hard...but i guess it's going to heal very soon...very very soon...takecare...
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Dear readers ,
hmmm today i was SUPER siao la...thanks to NGHUIWEN...hahax..she la..make mi wake up as early as 5...she should be soo damn hnoured can??omg...anyway main point is i came sch early to meet her because we went for morning run can??hahax..i totally run like siao can??hahax..at 1st run 12rounds...den rest,we went for 3rounds...den go for another round,i was SUPER antu la..hahax..so total i ran 16 rounds lo..ger,lynn and huiwen damn lazy wan can??they were walking la..but i jux continue to run la..den germaine chase after mi la..i see her machaim seein ghost like tat lo..ass la..hahax...den i went to shower today during recess..cux i was damn smelly..hello ppl,i got bring all those necessary stuffs ok??hahax.den after recess,thanks to my EXTRA partner,i got scolded by miss loke la...cux extra partner drank my lemon tea..den ms loke tell mi not to disturb her gals..like hello who is the one disturbin who?nvm.im a nice person.forget it..den was havin cme lesson,i put my lips stud inside my mouth,i saw xuewen makin funny faces,i laugh la den in the end i sallow tat stud lo..ms lee brought mi to office den send mi home.my brotoher came,went to c doctor den met up with judy...de saw sherlyn ho at bus stop..surprise can?cux she din go out with xiao ken..instaed she went home to test her new piano nehx...i think practisin new love song n play for xiaoken..hahax..den mi n judy cheat sherlyn money..we noe she's takin cab home but we ask her to send us to tiong 1st..see she's veri nice right??hahax.i called lover den she say she will call mi back..but instead she msg mi back,i din noe.i felt vibration n tot she cal i jux pick up e phone like idiot...in the end it's msg la...den we went to eat..wau..we totally disgrace ourselves till no nid money de lo..as in,we at there laugh veri loudly..haiyer nvm..i totally like an idiot there la..do alot of stupid things...hahas...ppl were like staring at us lo..yupps..u seems happy..they went to ur house...nvm..we msg n write letter..though wo xin ruan..but i guess im realli not going back to past anymore..im tired of seein u sad everytime..tired of cheering u up...simply tired of doing evey single thing for u...i realli dunno...u said u r happy gal n wun be sad anymore,it's all a lie!nvm...mi leaving ur life,wouldnt make any great impact on u...it wouldnt...u said bung n active should take initiative...yet she jux neva talk to u a few days,see how the way u went back to her la?n how the way u treated mi???u treated mi so coldly as though i was a pest...u realli make mi feel soo hurt n i realli hate u...i noe u will say up to mi n everything...but pls tink twice b4 u talk can??do u even have a opinion of ur own not???i realli dunno..no point fakin ur smile whenever u r not happy..u wanted mi to leave ur life,now i left..jux tell mi wat excatly do u wan??fuck la..irritatin can??omg..stop being so childish la..WAKE UP...wat lonely gal?wat useless?wat the hell u talkin abt man??can u like stop being so childish ok??haix forget it la..argh...u keep sayin up to u,like as though we will noe wat u wan like tat??forget it...i nid to reflect of wat i did this afternoon...i dun wish to be the old unhappy mi anymore...lover..can u dun be so sad anymore..u r soo not urself la..haiyer i dunno la...jux smiles...melissa...i dun noe wats with u either...try to cheer u up in e end..made...got scolded by u for nothing...smiles ok???
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Dear readers ,
sat pris wong damn stupid la...she idiot wan can???wanted to offered mi drink...or rather i should sayshe offered my butt drink la...haiyo..make mi malu dao bu yong qian la...some more in stabuke dropped mac drink lo..how CLUMSLY could she be???hahaxomg...i blog like for dunno how long den...IN THE END,cAnnot post la...cux e stupid com got pro la...anyway today veri happy la...laugh till dun nid money de la..hahax..hmmm cux of judy tan,e whole class is laughin at mi la...cux tat time i was singin the perfect song la...den i think the 'im sorry i cant be perfect'tis sentence quite nice ma den i write down la...in e end i went to spell 'im sorry i cant be prefect' la...den i was super malu lo..0_o!!early in e morning, cux of huiwen i accidentally bite myself n causes my mouth to bleed.how stupid can i get right??hahax...den mi n gin wei when going back class,wendy,she walked damn funny la.hahaxden we laugh till no nid money lo...dun ever blame mi for being heartless to u..it's not ur fault..u chose e path urself.i noe all u wan is frenx..but im sorry..i simply jux cant treat u like a normal frenx.i got no other choice but to leave until i totally forget u..transfering sch wun do u ani gd...u left the pro here n u r going to face new pro as well.my life seems so much happier without u..sorry to say this...at e very least,i got no worries at all...yupps:)at least i noe im letting go...if u ever turn back to mi,i'll only say im sorry...tats all...u cause my misery without u knowing...it's jux my fate...tat's e onli thing i could say...huiwen...i think im fallin in love with u can???omg i jux love u soo much la...take care...love u lots:)\germaine...happy birthday...be happy always:)dun quarrel with teacher la...hahax...
Monday, September 25, 2006
Dear readers ,
today is a happy day...
went out with lover today...
she damn idiot wan la...
hahax.say she will reach at 2 on the dot,in e end she also late....
somemore late for 2min la...
hahax...she suppose to own mi 3starbukes but she damn cheater...
ticker mi la...cux jux now she went to hospital with mi to visit my mum...
den she dun wan to go into the ward la....
so in the end she own mi 3...hahax..
but in the end she onli give mi2 cux im a nice person...hahax...
today my mama siao la...
tot lover was my gf la...
hahax...she say lover n mi look alike can???
hahax...anyway my mama damn cute today la...
haiyo...den went to starbuke study...
i was like writing the 2page letter to lover la...
she some more scold mi can???
how heartless can she be???
she damn dun care image CAN???
wauliao ehs...she took out her shoes n socks la...
some more in the public can???
gross till no nid money de la...hahax...
but kind of happy la..cux wo zhang da le...
hahax...she's no longer important in my life anymore la..
hahax...i hate going into stc cux it make mi frm STRAIGHT TO CROOK la...
hahax...im turning straight soon???
siao ah...hahax..no la..
perhape neutral bahs...
cux ai ren shi tong ku de...
hahax..see i really grow up le hor????
den i fell in love with one song la...
tat song is wo heng xiang ai ta...
hahax...den i found out tat prudence also like la...
hahax...stupid elephant,why like same songs as mi huh???
hahax...
beetle....maybe i realli dun belong to e sec2 world at all...
so i'll leave alright???cux i dun wan to bring unwanted misery to everyone....
i jux hope tat u all will be happy upon my leaving ok???
sorry if i had disappoint u or smth...yupps...
i got to thank u for tolerating my nonseanse...
i will neva regret living in this world anymore because i got to noe u in my life...
u clear up my mess tat i created...
cheer mi up when i sad...
u r truly a great frenx n beetle to mi...
i love u tons<33333
to pris lim...
yesterday was a fun day can???
hahax we saw hamburger..
so funny la...cal herself a bung...
when she is wearing normal bra...
hahax...i can see yesterday u veri tired la...
u better be happy yesterday can???
cux i let u pour water on mi la...
hahax...honoured not???
better be ok???
ok la...<33
xuchunmei....
dun always angry la...
later easily age de ok???
cheer up man..smiles:]
to mei...hmmm.
read my last time post,i realise alot things happen...
but nvm la...hahax u this stupid gal cheer up worx...
hahax...take care...
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Dear readers ,
haiyo...days n days passed....
thing werent any better...instead,it got WORSE...
welll..nvm..i guess it's my fault afther all...
u jux neva noe how hurt am i going to be whenever i noe u did something behind my back....
again n again...u broke n tear my heart into pieces....
haix forget it...shiwopeibushangni....
nvm...sincce i was e 1 whom brought misery to everyonr,i'll apologise ok???
n maybe if u all wan mi to leave,i'll...dun worry ppl...
i noe u guys hate the sight of mi...
but when it;s time to leave,i'll..
or maybe u dun even noe tat im leavin la...
im feelin in painnow la...omg....my eye swollen till no nid money de...hahax...today im sooo retarded la...sunddenly think back abt yesterday...i asked mrs chu whether i can use toaster to bake cookies not...den everyone was laughin at mi la...den fer ask mi wat we used to bake cake yesterday?i was like microwave la...n everyone started laugin at mi as though i was some idiot.hahax.but sad to say...i was simply confuse by oven,toaster n miucrowave...sorry la...den jux now in hall listen to some jazz music...i was super high la...sittin beside my eyecandy...PEKJIAMIN.hahaxden judy eyecandy was there too..hehex...den i saw some pig sleepin on huiwen la...so poor thing..i mean huiwen hor...huiwen it mux be hard on u den...hahax...i learned how to be strong n not to be affected by u anymore...though i always say the same old thing but now....im tired...have to concentrate on my studies man...i dun wan to retain....hahax....though i still cant get over of wat u had done to mi excatly but i'll try to...believe mi...yes im losin u...i noe tis...jux tell mi straight in the face u treat mi not more than a frenx n i'll understand...maybe wat u said to mi might not be wat i thinking...so conclusion it was a wishful part of thinkin...haix...i realli dunno...i realli got no comment can???NVM...i wouldnt visit anyone blog anymore...cux readin it will only hurt myself..jux hope tat u wun force mi to hate u...pls..i dun wish history to repeat itself again....my patient is to a limit....im sorry...i wun wan to hate u too...being frenx with u,im already content..i noe sorry dun mean anything to u now...if lettin go of u can lessen ur burden,i dun mind giving up...at least i get to see ur smile=)nikeyizhaodaoainideren.....keshinibunengzhaodapiwohaiainideren....liling..u got to wake up...there's no future between u n her...it's only u urself givin false hope....beside u cant provide her e happiness she wants...u give her nothin but misery...so liling wake up pls...stop cheatin urself anymore....
Friday, September 22, 2006
Dear readers ,
today in sch was alright la...hahax...anyway someone is angry with mi worx...i think i should dun care already...it benefits mi wat..hahax..mt was sooo crap la..hahax.i was msgin steph koh la.hahax.it's like she's in my class lohmmm.today l..den she tell mi sherlyn is talking rubbish to her tats y reply so late...haha.so funny lol..den tat judy damn funny today la..hahax.she was like talkin to mi but i din noe...den i tot she was mumblin to herself lo...hahax.sorry la...den she was singin today also lo..hahax.chinese period was the best 4 e whole entire day:)i nid to lose weight la..it's like wth...i only like got 1 day to lose 3kg...which is sooo IMPOSSIBLE ...hahax..dun care la...damn stress abt it lor...to SHIXUAN;THANKS for the chocolate!!!!!;)it does help mi in some way or another????hahax...i'll trust u la...dun worry;)hahax<33to lover wong;i told u i WOULDNT cry infront of u means i WOULDNT...hahax....sooo dun force mi;)i wan to drink again n again...was sooo shuang yesterday la...2bottle continously...yeppi yappi....hahax...thinkin back now,i was so funny la...fell alsleep after tat...hehex...bleahx;p<33to pris lim....u be strong ok???hmmm.the choice n happiness is in ur hand now...so decide wat u wan b4 it's tooo late...maybe u might be confuse but stilll....it's neva good to drag this type of thing lo...hahax..take care...<33to carmen....wei...dun cry le ok???fruit granny lurbb euu worx...hahax...so cheer up ok???mux be happy all e times;]buhbye<333i got no comment either...hahax..if u tink i smoke den i smoke lor...since u dun have the trust in mi..or maybe u found out the truth...u might not noe u know.hahax.so its up to u...yupps.i'll smoke for all i wan...yupps...ok...u wan to leave my life???alright den...go ahead n do wateva u wan alright???i wouldnt interfere in ur life anymore...yupps:)sure...cux maybe after u left i'll b happier???im veri hurt now...yet nobody knows...whenever i see u n __ i'll be....nvm...i tried so super hard to hold ur bloody hand...yet all she nid to do is lie on ur bloody shoulder n u jux hold her hand...can u imagine how hurt i was when i heard of tis..nvm..i noe it will be over soon...yet u were the one who ask mi to take initiative la...nvm nvm..chill liling chill...hahax...i'll NEVA believe u AGAIN...broke my trust time and time again yet i neva say anything....or maybe it's my fault right???cux maybe u dun meant wat u say right???den i go anyhow think...CONCLUSION????MY FAULT LA OK???hahax...hahax.anyway im happy la...yupps.hahax.u wan to do wat,u do lo.cuz it dun concern mi mahs...haha...with or without mi in ur life makes no difference also...so no point mi being soo thick skinned to cling on u!!!!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Dear readers ,
well...i broke up yesterday...
but seriously i rather stayin single than hurtin u....
im sorry for all the hurt tat i had causes 4 u...
it jux tat im healin my wound in process as welll.
im forgettin sum1 too...
duibuqi...i tried my best to love u...
but i really cant forget her*so i dun wish to toy with ur feelin...
it's better to end eariler than later...
dun u agree with mi???
i dun worth ur love n wo pei bu shang ni....
it will only cause greater hurt to u if i tell u later...
pls dun cut anymore...
none of ur tears n blood worth for anyone..
keep all those for urself...
im really very serious abt the veri last relationship...
i realli realli tried my veri best le...
sorry tat i failed AGAIN....
wo zhen de zhen de heng duibuqi...
i noe sayin sorry cant heal ur wound...
i guess all ur frenz are hatin mi now...
for causin so much trouble n hurt...
all the effort tat u puted in,
i saw it...i was seriously touched...
i tot tat i will fall for u because i could see how much u love mi....
i realli dun see any point ok???
so ya...hate mi...im serious...
im soo tired of my life but i noe i got to live on...
i'll b happy from today onwards???
my cousin jump off the buildin n pass away...
superman???damn bloody sad enough already...
sum1 still add fuel to fire la...
well nvm nvm...
everything was meant to be my fault la...yupps...
to joan;thanks for helpin mi to take care of ting n everything....
but pls,heip mi ok???
im relli at loss of wat to do....
onli thing i could say to her is duibuqi!!!!!
melissa;got any info tell mi kays???
it's really easier to give up when i noe the truth...
esp the cruel truth...
im always gaven false hope...
tat'a why it's harder...
u do take care of urself alrite???smiles...
pris lim...do treasure of wat u havin now...
but make ur choice quick too...
yupps...if u realli at loss of wat to do,
can ask judy...she had been caught in tis situation too...
yupps it's a expreience ok???
do take care tons...dun moodswing so much ok???
one day free,go drinkin together ok???cheer up:)
lover;dun always moodswing anymore ok???
tat's so not my lover at all..
yupps...anyway i wouldnt cry cuz of her anymore...
so i doubt u will get the chance to see mi cry 24times ok???
smiles...i love u tons...
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Dear readers ,
y is it tat u dun trust mi at all???hai 4get it....i dun worth ur trust at all wat...nvm im veri screwed today le...sooo nvm...i so malu la...cry infront ofSEVENTYTWO...waulau...malu dao bu yong qian...haix...cousin jumped down frombuilding yesterday...he passed away...i cried like some shit la..haiz..y mux he b soo silly???or perhape i should be like him too???should i???its like nobody wan to believe mi la...i try soo hard jux to 4get u but no1 belive mi la...rawh wth la...haiz.nvm...it's not ur fault after all...
everything have to blame myself la...
i do not think i have the nid to explain to u...cux i tink u also cant b bother too...sooo ya...no 1 cares too...haiyo...u said u treat mi more than a nomal frenz..ya..maybe ur best frenz?close frenz??jiejie?well seriously i dunno..i dun dare to anyhow think too...cux i dun wan to fall deeper anymore...
im tryin veri hard..i dun wan to let her* down...really...haiyer...if i were to tell u all tis....i noe u will jux tell mi wateva la...haiyo nvm la...jux hope tat u wouldnt get soo piss off anymore...if u wan mi to get out of ur life,i will do sooo.u cheer up aye??will u..as long as u r willin to cheer up,i will jux leave u alone...neva bother u again...i dunno if i should tell this..i jux fall too deep for u..everytime i read ur blog my heart will be veri tong...however i doubt u will noe how i feel..welll everything was wo de cuo
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Dear readers ,
well today mei WAS IN BAD MOOD LA...
tried to cheer her up but she jus like cant be bother with mi...
to my suprise...cux i very hot temper wan ma...den she
keep attitude mi obviously i WILL moodswing...
BUT i didnt n i manage to cheer her up la...
haha...cool right....
it jux seems like she cant 4get her*n her*.
haiz...i dunno la...
but still i tink im forgettin her soon....
haha...haiyo....when will e day tat i will forget u???
i guess tis comin soon???
hopefully...
cux all tis while u had been treatin mi jux like a normal friend..
even ifu say tat u treat mi moe than a normal frenz,
it could onli be ur kor or best or close frenx lo...
yupps..soo i wouldn't b e old mi anymore...
as in dun think too much of wat u said...
it may cause mi to be one sided lor....
cux i may think u like mi too but
in the end u dun like mi la...
it make mi feel soo hurt...
anyway....i dun wan to care anymore le la....
yupps...i will still be here 4 u...
28/8/06is a day which i will neva 4get 4 life...
yupps...i had a fierce quarrel with her la...
cux b4 tat i read her blog den totally no mood can?
haiyer nvm...i cant force her either....
haiyer nvm la...
every single thing was my fault la...
haiyer...im soo sorry 4 everything...
hmmmm...dunno la...
tuhh mei;sorry today 4 everything....
yupps maybe u r right...
huiwen might b happier now??
i seriously dunno...
but stii u cheer up ok???
we didnt meant to lied...
guess if u r willin to give mi another chance,
i will promise not to lie to u anymore...
i swear....yupps....
tuhh pris wong...
u relax alright???
hmmmm...jux chilll....
hahax...i dunno wat to say le lahx.
hahax...
Monday, September 04, 2006
FRIENDS around me HAPPY!
