Dear readers ,
welll...everything jux seem so wrong...
i wish to start anew with u...
but sometimes u jux seems to turn mi off...
i dunno...haix...
duibuqi for hurtin u for the third time...
somemore so deep...
realli sorry...
i choose not to love u...
i choose to hurt u like nobody business....
its not say i dun love u at all....
i do have feelin for u yet i choose to keep it to myself...
its onli till when i lost u den i realise how much i actually love u....
i told louise not to tell u the truth because i wanted u to hate mi...
n u realli hate mi ...i was sad...
but i jux keep quiet...
i din tell u anything...
hai...forget it...it was my fault in the first place wat...
shi wo dui bu qi ni...
shang le ni de xin...
ask for patch den when u wan mi to say tat time,
i refused to say n keep pushin u to others...
onli when u realli go to others,
i realise how much i actualli nid u...
i dunno wat to say anymore..
jux hate mi for all u wan...
but i jux wanna tell u tat i had fall for u...
u do not have the nid to noe...
how long r u goiing to live on?y r u jux going to leave mi anytime?y r u so heartless?i wan u to live on...tis is not the right time for u to leave mi...can u get well??i noe tis is impossible...because it is in the 4th stage already...i controlled my tears infront of u...onli when kor kor started to shed tears,my tears rolled down my cheeks like nobody business...we kept ur illness from u because we afraid tat u cant take it...sometimes how i wish all ur pain can be transfered to mi...everything jux seems so wrong...
well..nvm...
i dunno...
im like drifting away from everyone...
im begining not to be like mi anymore...
sometimes...i dun even noe who im exactly....forget it...not really in the mood anymore...
how i wish i can vanish from the world real soon...
Monday, October 30, 2006
Dear readers ,
i dunno wat u r thinkin nowaday...
well i even dunno wat im thinkin either...
nvm...i dunno... forget it...
i dun wish to noe anymore things abt u animore...
the cruel truth wouldnt do mi any good...
in fact its hurting mi..
i dun wan to noe anymore things...
i tink im breakin down veri soon...i dunno why...i tink i dun love u anymore...
but everytime i heard things abt u...
i simply heartache alot...
esp when it concern abt u n other ppl...
within tis 3 month...
i din receive anything back from u...
i din say anything.i jux kept quiet..
forget it.i realli wan to forget everything.
mummy...can u get well real fast?
i dun wan u to get sick anymore...
get well real soon can?
get out of hospital soon alright?
stop gettin so sick...
u dunno i will cry n get sad over u.
it's jux because i dun show...
im sorry...i jux cant express myself...
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Dear readers ,
today...i was veri sad....
i tot i will retain but mrs wong push mi up..;)
i cried veri hard after talkin to u...i dunno y too....den after recess,i punch the wall n everything...
den fight with sherlyn ho...
hahas...i have a veri big blue black la..
haiyo..din noe she got so much strength...
nvm...
i hated u today..real hard....u were like a bitch to mi...u call mi today...not knowin y...u din wan to tell mi...maybe...i oso dunno wat i wan either...nvm....i dun wish to get involve in anymore things concern the 4 of u...im tired....damn tired...feel like breakin down....
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Dear readers ,
haiya i dunno why today totally veri no mood lo...
hai...is it affected by u?
am i turning back or something...
wat had causes the change in u??
why r u treatin mi tis way??
i didnt meant to dun come sch...
but seriously i wasnt feelin good...
i dun wan anymore problem....
my mum is sick...wat can i do?
tried my veri best to be happy n everything...
and whose noe my mum might jux pass away anytime??
i cried real hard after visitin u...but all i hope was u to recover...everything dun matter to mi now....
if i could...
i dun mind exchangin my life with my mother...
whatever it takes...
to all those frenx whom had stand by mi....
huiwen,ger,lynn,judy,wendy,angrypill...
thank you for toleratin my nonsense....
sorry for ventin my anger on all of u...
thank you for everything....
Friday, October 20, 2006
Dear readers ,
hasnt been bloggin...
haix...so much thing had happen...
i dunno la.haiyer...
i jux wan my lover to cheer up tat's all...
im teelin u 4 e last time...
jux let her go...
she will be happier tis way...
yupps.no point makin her stay when she dun wan..
though i wish she would turn back but i guess....
it's impossible la...so ya...
u better cheer up after everything i had said....
i tink it's my fault la.
i shouldn't had hold her hand n everything will be fine la...
it's my fault for makin another person lose in ur life.
duibuqi...i dunno...
i may be like watb she had said abt mi?
im jux e 2nd liao jia shen...
nvm la...
so much thing happen i dun wan to care too..
cux it's like im retaining...
and if touch wood my mother pass away,i dun wish to live on as welll...
haix i dunno la...forget it...jux take it tat it;s a mistake knowin mi...
im nothin but a trouble maker...yupps...
everybody cheer up...
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Dear readers ,
today is a sway day or happy day??
cux early in e morning i open coke...
guess wat:??the coke spilled on mi la.haha
how stupid right?hahax.
den ss and poa paper was alright i tink?
haha.i listen to wendy mp4 during exam la..
haha.den after sch im like punchin bag to ALOT of ppl la...
soooo idiot can....
i was veri veri sad...in the moring;(
tat sherlyn ho hor...
loan shark can?
50cent onli mahs...chase mi until like tAt...
pa dao bu si...hahax...
den eat raja inn sooo wat la.
hahax.my dan feng become ginwei mi feng la.haha.
n tat sherlyn ho hor...
totally buay ta han her la
she help mi order drink when i neva even say i wan la.
den she suddenly laugh and slap mi la..
hahax...
u neva turn back to look at mi once...all i wan to tell u is...turn back to the one u love...and the person is waitin for u right now...she cant forget u n u cant forget her.might as well get back and be happy all over again...thank you for all the happy memories...i'll treat everything as a dream...i'll be wakin up veri soon...veri veri soon...
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Dear readers ,
hmmm dunno how mani thousand of years had not blog already..
some ppl so idiot la..
say i type very slow..but nvm..im slow wat..
hmpH..im not a pig ok?IDIOT!!!!
hahax..anyway i realli nid to study but i cant get anything in..
argh...i dunno lei..guess im going to retain?
hai..yesterday went to shop for ingredient...
like im going to cook some big feast like tat..
can u imagine havin a macaroni for breadfast...
hahax..nvm..
i was like a pig for dunno how mani days la..
i sleep till dun nid money wan..hahax..
dun lie to mi by sayin u might like mi back cux i will be the one getting hurt la..u r sayin as though u lke mi..in e end when i confessed to u,u r like so scared of mi la..wat am i supposed to do??i realli dunno..perhaps if u realli like mi,i wouldnt do anything anymore...im sorry for being so timid..but rightfully u still belong to her...i cant do anything..im helpless...i dun like the way she looked at us..it look as though we are criminal...when we are not even doin anything...whenever she is around i treat u differently...so much different..im sorry....why should i even bother to turn back when u r leavin...why??but 1 thing im sure of is.....i still unable to 4get u...though e feelin have faded... i dun like the way u look at mi...i hate the feeling alot..im sorry of i do anything..but i noe sorry this word wun help..i noe how u actually bitch behind my back...but i din do anything..because im a coward...im a small fry...forget it...everything jux started with mi...i shall leave ur world la..
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Dear readers ,
today kind of sux like hell la..
1st period CHEM...
den im tryin very hard to understand already but i still cant lo..
fuck la..it seems like everyone understand except for mi la...
haiyo..i totally very fuck up la..
haiyo..realli dunno la...
den next period math...
do paper den totally forget how to do everythin den teacher dun wan to help...
idiot can??den after recess,mi n judy jux dun seems to be in the mood la...
till now we r still very....
argh i dunno la...
maybe im jus tired bahs..
idiot la...
sheryn ho neva come sch worx..
i miss her sia..
idiot la.ask her come she dun wan...
anyway heard tat u had a headache...
take care alright...cheer up=)
thank you for time n time again for makin things for mi...thank u..it realli realli warms my heart la...i really cant afford to lose u...pls dun leave mi cux i'll turn into a frong...i dun wan..haha...sometimes im realli stupid...so pls tell mi how u feel or i'll neva noe...sorry for hurtin u...sorry for makin u forget to bring something which is very important to u...and causes u unable to concentrate in class...duibuqi...sorry for everything...
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
FRIENDS around me HAPPY!