Dear readers ,
was i too childish or was i just so used to you being by my side
u din take any initiative to msg mi at all!
u said u were sleepin at 2 plus im okaye with it
but now?6?u are still not awake?
or u can just tell mi u took medicine n u couldnt wake up
watever okay?
seriously this 2day
as u can see we seldom msg
we are drifting more apart
forget it ok
u told mi u wan patch but i dun feel u make any effort to want to patch
i guess it's just over between the both of us
i think it through.i noe the reason y u din wan janna to know the relationship
so now the prolem lies with mi n not u
i will just take u u dumped mi.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Dear readers ,
all this day i dunno what i've been doing
my birthday was like *zoom* just past by like that
and it's still the same as any other yeaR
i thought u will remember this promise to celebrate my birthday for mi
yet it was nothing
wat i did on my birthday was playing ball
i din even celebrate or anything!
omg i think my classmate is fucking irritating la
like wtf?
and thanks michelle
u said i deserve someone better make mi feel so much relieve
i seriously feel that i own her alot
well baby abt gwen everything is in the past already
as for now i will put down everything and move on with you
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Dear readers ,
im confused right nowi dunno what i thinking all alongi dun even noe whether i mind anot for all the thing that will happen nextit's not i dun have trust in ur or maybe i dun have trust in myselfhow much i love youhow deep i love i myself cant seesmall little action of yours will just affect mi badlyjust because there's no heart beside my name i anyhow thinki really think im too childish to get into relationshipif u together with her u find she's better than miim willing to let you goshe really love youi think it's not very wise to toy her feelingi dunno why im saying thisor maybe im really afraid of losing youi needed u more than anything you are the air i neededwithout you there wont be a reason for mi to live on anymore
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Dear readers ,
laopo da ren i wun let you heart break anymore
see u diao yan lei wo xin zhen de hen pain
trust mi again
we will never be apart n together forever
it will be very soon we can stay together le
den i every night can hug u to sleep n kiss you le
soon we will be open le
hehes,
i put in 101% for you le
dun leave mi kkae?
muack
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Dear readers ,
if you only can treat mi like this forever
i promise not to leave you anymore
i really love you actually
te amo
Monday, January 14, 2008
Dear readers ,
is it so hard to trust
is it always u can think too much while i cant
i think too much u scolded mi
or maybe our love is just fading away
can we still be together and have future
all this question running around my mind
gosh i love you baby
i miss you
do you even noe
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Dear readers ,
does it really mean that every couple after break up cant even be friend?den i really rather i dun even get into relationship it's just the mistake i had makei cannot do anything to make it up anymoreAs life goes on Im starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they dont want to take responsibility for
Im sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
Im sorry for the times that I had to go
Im sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
Im sorry for the times I would neglect
Im sorry for the times I disrespect
Im sorry for the wrong things that
Ive done
Im sorry Im not always there for my son
Im sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you cant sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl
[Bridge]I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then its just a shame on me
Ill be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me
Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didnt know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didnt agree
He got up and left you there all alone
Im sorry that you had to do it on your own
Im sorry that I went and added to your grief
Im sorry that your son was once a thief
Im sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I wouldve listened and not be so bad
Im sorry your life turned out this way
Im sorry that the FEDS came and took me away[Bridge]
Im sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
Im sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
Im sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
Im sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesnt anybody wanna take blameVerizon backed out disgracing my name
Im just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans
Ill take that blame
Even though the blames on you [3x]
Ill take that blame from you
And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
and you can put that blame on me
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Dear readers ,
im having some freaky problem with my fucking dad
i can no longer see the way he is now
i wan to leave the house badly
but i dun bear to do this to my dad
he is the only one i left with now
i really dunno what to do anymore
how much longer can i take this nonsense?
i dunno
i really feel like dying
life is so meaningless
no one understand what im feeling right now
i told u how i felt all
yet u just give mi the feeling like hack care
i mean i dun blame u for everything
im not blaming u
but u always think that im doing that?
or the both of us had made the wrong choice?
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Dear readers ,
is it really so disgrace for mi to be your stead
as a bung when a gal does not wan to open the relationship
the bung will feel that she's not good enough for the gal
hmmm i dun wish to lose you oso
i really dunno wat to do to boost your confidence
am i such a failure?
i dun wish this to happen at all
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Dear readers ,
countdown was FUN!
esp when i get to spend with the one i love the most
all of us were playing like mad!
every single one of us were throughly WET!
though we disgrace ourselves n offended ppl
but STILL we enjoyed ourself
it was like amazing okay
everyone of us were like smoking and drinking in front of the police
when we were like ya
hahas,LP i really wish every special occasion i will be able to spend with u
i noe what's the meaning of LG la
just wanted u to say only
hehes,like to disturb u
my ah bee u now xiang xiang right?
not chou chou le:)i love you
u pass den i buy the tamagotchi for u
hehes.
went back store to work today
thing seem to be abit diff
n ppl seem to change
well i dunno how to describe
but i feel like leaving
i dun feel like staying
the feeling is VERY different now
i dunno how long i will be ablel to hang in this store
when i had found a job so much better than now
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
FRIENDS around me HAPPY!